Tuesday, 17 November 2009

November 18th 2009

Its a tuesday. It feels like it never stops raining, and the mornings are dark and cold. Getting up for work is easy when you have had enough sleep. Showering and dressing slowly; in a sleeping house you always try and by a million times more quiet than you need to be. Every sound feels amplified and I find myself staring thoughtfully into the fridge, at my reflection in the mirror, at my hands as I sit at my desk, wondering what the hell Im doing this for. I dont want to go, but if I stayed I know Ill do nothing either.

I scroll through the internet, reading articles and seeing pictures from other peoples lives. Wishing I was there,and forming in my mind a plan to get out of this place. But to move forward takes time, and money. So, silently, I do my hair, apply make up, don my coat and go to work for the millionth time. I am only working there because I need the money. At least this degree is relevant to my interests.
Theme song of my day; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRnkXVXQBWY

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